The Tuesday after Christmas I had a MAJOR wreck and totaled the car. Both airbags had came out and the whole front end was gone. So now I am stuck trying to find a good car that I can pay for right now.
Now on top of everything that is going on with that, my Aunt Mot has increasing gotten worst and has now been to a neurologist. She is getting to were she cannot remember things and getting really bad. I have cried and cried because with them wanting me to help, my nerves cant take it plus with me trying to work so much I have no clue when there will be any time.
I never thought that I would be facing all of this right at the beginning of a new year. I was hoping for a fresh new start. Yea right guess I can dream on... Life has just been so crazy lately.
Plus I have been so stressed out with Jesse. I sometimes just want to brake down and cry because I feel so afraid I will lose everything I have ever dreamed up. I almost have to walk on eggshells around him. I have to watch what I say when I say it and everything or he does something to me. Plus I am so tired of the second shift crap. Like right now we have things to do but he will not get out of bed. Then on Sunday it is the same thing I just pray something will change for the better soon. I truly don't know how much more I am strong enough to take. I just pray that God will give me the strength to get me through all this.
