Miss My Friend

This is truly the first night all year that Jesse is at his house and nothing here with me.  Yes I have slept without him a lot in the past three weeks, but now he is here close to me but not here with me.  I never knew that I would miss him this much.  I thought I could be a strong person.  But with all that has happened to me I am still scared.  I am so thankful to finally have that person to put their arms around me and to know that they are there for me.
I am just praying that I make it through the night and day tomorrow without him and tonight I will get to see him again.
I know this sound all a little childish but it is truly how I feel.

Monday Morning Rush

I am so amazed by my loving boyfriend.  He puts on a smile on my face when I need it the most.  Takes away all my worries and never lets me down.  I truly could never ask for anything more that just to be with him. 
This weekend was great.  Friday we went and got Jesse's truck.  And for once it finally snowed.  YAY!!! Since we had the truck, we went and had some fun with it.  It was amazing fun.  Saturday we rode around in the truck that morning and went to Sam's. Of course we come home and I cleaned the upstairs and washed some clothes while Jess cleaned out his truck and Daddy and him put his toolbox in the bed of his truck that he got on Friday night.  Then we went back to Liberty and just hang out around there.  I have never been so happy in my whole life!!!  Sunday we went to church and I went to see WICKED (AMAZING).  Last night was a great night we just cuddled up and watch TV. I could not ask for more than just to be with him.  I am so ready to be with him for the rest of my life. 
Well I won't get to see him again till tomorrow night cause we both have so much to do.  But hopefully I will be ok.

xoxo
Ken

Count down to the Love weekend!!!

This weekend is going to be amazing weekend.  IT IS VALENTINE'S DAY WEEKEND!!! Tonight kicks it off when Jesse gets off.  We still have no clue what we are doing because we really don't know if he has to work tomorrow or not.  (I really hope not).  But he should get his truck back today YAY!!! That makes me excited. I miss riding in his sexy beast of a truck lol.  Plus they are calling for snow too.  Which hopefully for once we will get some.  If we do one thing we are going to do is go play in the truck.  I love him SO MUCH.

I got the sweetest text from him just saying I love you.  That is all I need to hear. 

I have so much school work this weekend for reading and short Journal writing for English to studying for my Biology test on Tuesday.  But school is going really good and I cannot be more happier about it.  I average my grade for both classes and I have a 91 in English in a 93 in Biology.  I cannot believe that I have A's in all my classes really is this really me.  But now that I see that I can do this I am kicking myself for not doing this a year ago.

I am back in Greenville for the day again today, while Jess is at work today.  Which gives me time to work on school work and get most of it done.  I am just ready to show everyone that I can do this about school.  So since I am in Greenville I am back at Panera in my usually sit by the warm fireplace.  Enjoying some good coffee which I haven't had in a while.  Now it would be perfect if Jess could be here to hang out with me instead of being at work.

Oh my gosh I almost forgot Sunday, I get to go see WICKED!!!! How freaking exciting!!! I cannot wait.  (Even though I have seen it before in Atlanta but I am super excited to get to see it again.)

Well I am going to work on some of my mountain of homework so I can enjoy my wonderful weekend.

Ken <3

Tears, Fights, and Happiness

I never knew that fighting could help a relationship.  You know I hate fighting with Jesse, I really never want to do it. But last night after we fought and got all the feelings we were feeling out there it was like a weight was pulled off of us.  We got to be a couple that loves each other again.  He is the most amazing thing that has ever happened to me.  After our talk last night I know that I won't lose him because I know that he is the one for me.  I love him with all my heart.  I want things to be perfect but I know nothing is perfect.  But the way that we love each other things can be great.  God is writing the perfect story for us and that is what we have to keep going for.

So today has been really good been us.  I got up this morning and brought him to work (hopefully his truck will be done this afternoon or tomorrow). Then we went and had a wonderful lunch just me and him.  I loved it.  It was truly like when we started dating.  Tonight I have class so we are having the day in Greenville.  When he gets off we will do something until class time, then he will either get to go get his truck while I am in class or he will just hang out till time for me to get out.  I know he really wants his truck to be done.  But I kind of don't because I get to spend that time with him.  

He is truly my best friend, my everything.  I went ahead and gave him his Valentine's Day gift cause I already had mine.  I ended up getting him a black South Carolina hat.  MY LORD I CANNOT BELIEVE I BROUGHT SOMETHING SOUTH CAROLINA.  But he really likes it and that is all that matters.  Now I just got to come up with something to get him for his birthday in two weeks.  ANY IDEAS LET ME KNOW!!!

Hopefully this weekend we can have us a little date night for Valentine's Day nothing big though.  I just want the weekend to be great since this is our first Valentine's Day together, even though we have a lifetime more together.  I really can't wait for that.  Well I am going to finish up some homework cause Jess will be off in a hour and I have to go pick him up.  So I will post something later

Kenz<

Still Monday and Still Slow....

Well I am still in Greenville waiting on Jesse (which he is not going out of town today).  I went and he lunch with him and Kevin (a guy he works with) to Taco Bell but I ended up having pizza from there.  

Oh the hair thing that I had talked about the other week. Yea I still haven't got it fixed and now my hair is turning ORANGE!!!! This is so no good.  So night it is damage control on the hair.  We have got to do something cause this hair is not working for me at all.  I have found out that I just really wish it could be the color I want it to be finally and be done with it.  Plus I am just ready for it to be long again.  I mean yes it has grown a ton in the past few months.  But it has to be the right length and the right color before anything really happens about the getting married. (WHICH I AM HOPING IS NOT FAR AWAY).

I found the most beautiful song ever.  I was listening to the radio on-line after I updated and I hear this song.  It is by Lee Brice (of course he is awesome he is from South Carolina) the song is called Love Like Crazy.  I am going to do what it talks about so Jesse and I can be together 58 years!!!

They called them crazy when they started out
Said seventeen's too young to know what loves about
They've been together fifty-eight years now
That’s crazy

He brought home sixty-seven bucks a week
He bought a little 2 bedroom house on Maple Street
Where she blessed him with six more mouths to feed
Yea that’s crazy

Just ask him how he did it; he'll say pull up a seat
It'll only take a minute, to tell you everything
Be a best friend, tell the truth, and overuse I Love You
Go to work, do your best, don't outsmart your common since
Never let your prayin' knees get lazy
And love like crazy

They called him crazy when he quit his job
Said them home computers, boy they'll never take off
He sold his one man shop to Microsoft
They paid like crazy

Just ask him how he made it
He'll tell you faith and sweat
And the heart of a faithful woman,
Who never let him forget

Be a best friend, tell the truth, and overuse I Love You
Go to work, do your best, don't outsmart your common since
Never let your prayin knees get lazy
And love like crazy

Always treat your woman like a lady
Never get to old to call her baby
Never let your prayin knees get lazy
And love like crazy

They called him crazy when they started out
They've been together fifty-eight years now

Aint that crazy?

I totally love this song and everyone needs to check it out!!!

Ken<3

Tired Monday Morning

Monday morning is not the best thing in the world when Jesse maybe having to go back out of town.  I am just sitting over here in Greenville at Panera trying to study some for my test tomorrow but I really can't focus.  Today I can just tell that it is Monday and I got up way to early.  Yea 5 this morning came to soon.  But I got to spend the ride over to Greenville with my Honey Bear.  I just need to get use to this until his truck gets fixed.  We finally went and took it to get fixed yesterday but I am going to have to take him to work and pick him up.  Which means the people at Panera will be seeing a lot of me for the next week.  This weekend was another great weekend for Jess and me.
Friday when he got back we had Chan with us, so instead of going to the basketball game, we to a little shopping trip kind of. We went to Commerce, Ga to the boot outlet over there.  They had an amazing sale on boots and I was excited cause Jess wanted to find me a pair of new ones that where work boots.  Of course my foot is so tiny the men's boots where way to big and they really didn't have any women's boots that we liked.  But Jesse found the cutest pair of boots that were a Youth size.  They fit my feet so good and they are so cute.  The are John Deere boots, that are brown and pink CUTE!!!! Jesse got him a new pair too.  Well see to begin with on our way there one of our windshield wipers flew off going down 85.  It was so funny but it scared the crap out of me.  Then on our way home.  We got off 85 to get us something to eat and look for a tattoo place.  Some how we ended up in the backwoods of Georgia and finally found a Taco Bell aka Taco Hell.  When we got back on the interstate we some how got back on the interstate going south instead of north and by the time we noticed we where back in Commerce.  So needless to say we went to Commerce twice Friday night.
Saturday was a pretty relaxing day.  We spent the day in Liberty just hanging out at the house.  We went to eat at Joe's in Easley, Wal-mart, and just ran around town.  Ended up eating dinner with his family and then headed back to Anderson for the night.
Yesterday really wasn't a big day or anything.  We went to church and went to eat with everybody.  The food sucked and it was so nasty.  We took Jesse's truck to get fixed and it will hopefully be done on Friday.  We really didn't do anything for the Super Bowl.  But I was glad the Saints bet the Colts.  I really don't like the Colts so everything is good.

So this weekend was just a relaxing weekend.  This is bad it is only Monday and I am already thinking about next weekend cause it is the BIG VALENTINE'S DAY WEEKEND.  I still have no clue what I am getting Jesse for Valentine's Day or his birthday which is in two weeks from this Saturday.  Any ideas let me know. REMEMBER LOW ON CASH!!!!!  I have already got my Valentine's Day present which was my new computer screen ( THANK YOU BABY FOR THAT...and thanks Chris for fixing it for us) and my new pair of boots that I got Friday night YAY.  Now I just really got to come up something for Jess but of course he knows I have no money. 

But I guess I am going to try to go back to studying for the big test tomorrow. Hopefully I will post something maybe later and let yall know if Jess is out of town and I am all by myself AGAIN this week or not.
Ken<3

PS. I have a job interview with AnMed Health tomorrow keep all fingers crossed really want this job.

He is my Knight in Shining Whatever I love hm so much and can't wait to put my arms around him!!!!!

Just Some Late Details

Yes I know I have posted something already tonight but I am just laying here in the dark wishing it was Friday night so I would at least have Jesse laying beside me.  Roxie is being sweet for once in her life and I just sitting in my lap rubbing her head all over my arm as I type.  The week has been pretty slow since Jesse has been gone since Monday.  
Monday, I went and took Jesse to work. Then went to the doctor about my tooth to see if I would need a root canal. Chan's basketball game was that night so I went to see her cheer one last time as a Lakeside Middle School Cheerleader.  Tuesday was just a day of running around town in the rain putting in job applications, Which if you know of any place that I could get at least a good paying part-time job let me know I really need one soon.  After playing in the rain all day I had school.  We got our first test that I was very nervous about but I ended up making an 81 which is a B.  I was so excited I did my little happy dance right there in the classroom.  Now we are caught up to today.  It was the everyday Wednesday, sleep till about 10:00 and then off to school and then home for a little while, after all that off to church.  Church was really good and I have found like my new little sister.  I love her to death and we had a great talk tonight.  I just really got to keep praying for her.
So tomorrow will hopefully be just a prettied laid back day.  I will hopefully get stuff cleaned up around the upstairs and in my room.  I really need to do all this tomorrow so I can focus on school and my weekend.  If I have all this done tomorrow I will have the house ready for Jess to come home.  YAY!!!  But after doing all that tomorrow I have school tomorrow night and I is the last class before our first lab test.  So yet again I have to be nervous all weekend and into the week until next Thursday when I get it back. 
Friday is the big day.  Jesse comes home and I so can't wait.  I have missed him the last week and I am just ready to hold him in my arms again and never let go.  I really don't know what our plans are for this weekend.  I want to at least talk Jess into going to the Westside vs. Easley basketball game Friday night but after that I have no clue.  Saturday there is really no plans what so ever.  But I really want to make this weekend special for us, so if any ideas let me know.  Sunday of course will be church.  Then hopefully we will be back to regular schedule of things, Jesse back to work and me back to my normal week of school and house work.
I can't believe that we are so madly in love I really didn't think something like this really could happen, especially after what I started going through about a year ago.  I really never thought I could be so happy.  I just pray everyday that this thing between me and Jesse will just keep on getting better and better.  I have feel in love with the best man I have ever met.  
Dear John the movie comes out this weekend and I hope that I can get to go see it.  It was an amazing book so I just hope that it will be an amazing movie.  Jesse and my daddy have been watching movies together lately and they all pretty much suck.  Not that has really caught my eye on being a good movie.
Oh and this week I have dyed my hair lighter color.  I really want to get to a blondish brown color, but it really didn't work this time.  But everyone who has seen it seems to like it.  But who know I just really hope I can fix it soon and my hair doesn't fall out cause of it.  That would be the worst thing ever.  I was just tired of the dark color, the dark had a lot of old memories that I just had to let go.  Which I am so glad I did.
But they are also memories that I will never forget any second of them.  But now I am on to making new memories with the love of my life.  He has shown me how to grow and how to be the person I have always been deep down inside.  I am just ready to be his wife.  If he can only hurry up and ask me already!!! 
Well it is close to 2 in the morning and I have Grey's Anatomy going on the TV, and my PJs on and just ready to get some sleep so I can talk to my sweetheart in the morning when he gets up.  I just hope to get to sleep real soon.  But hopefully I will have time to post something tomorrow.  

<3 Kenz


PS. Hopefully something great will happen when Jesse gets back home but not going to get my hopes up.

Life is really good

It is Wednesday Night and church was amazing tonight. Just would have been even better if Jesse was back. He still wont be back till Friday afternoon. Just two more days but these two more days is killing me. He is my everything, my best friend, my soul mate and he is not here. I am so ready to be Mrs. Jesse Matthew Hester. But no of course he has not asked me yet. I just wish he would hurry up. Just to hear him say them words "Will You Marry" is the three words I want to hear so back. I love Jesse and everything is so great between us just having to wait to hear those words. I am so ready for him to be home. But anyways I have to go back to working on my homework post later.

Ken