So everyone will never understand how much I love my job. I just am so puzzled on why I signed on to work on extra 4 hours on the 12 hrs I was scheduled. I am just so thankful that I have a great job that I love. I just really need the money I want things and want to be able to buy Jesse more Christmas plus I still have all my family to buy for.
On to the subject of Jesse and I since I did bring that up. I am just to the point where I am truly afraid I am going to lose him. I mean the first thing he informes me of the other day of that Jeff told him that Elizabeth and her husband called it quit. I just have this itchy feeling that Jeff really would rather have Jesse with Elizabeth and not me. Even though he has never meet me. I am afraid and don't know how to act. I wish I just tell them all off or I had the ring on my finger that would help me feel better about the whole thing.
I wish I could talk to Jesse about it but I get myself into a fuss with him when I start something.
Friday, November 19, 2010
Wednesday, November 17, 2010
Week in Atl
Hey my beautiful readers this month has truly flew by and it is almost Thanksgiving. Which has become one of my favorite times of the year. And I can't believe that the same day Jesse and I will have been together for a year.
This week has been really chill somewhat. I worked on Monday morning and left and come to Nise's that night so I could take care of her for the week seeing how she just had her surgery last Friday. Which everything went amazing and could not ask for more.
I have had a great time just chilling at the house. Pretty much watched tons of CSI and NCIS. But I leave tomorrow to go back home and then of course I go straight back to work on Friday morning. I wish I would get sometime with Jesse but that is life I guess.
Hope next weekend will be great cause we are coming back to Nise's for Thanksgiving and then coming back to Anderson for the BIGGEST GAME OF THE SEASON CLEMSON vs. CAROLINA!!! I truly cannot wait to be able to spend that time with my love.
Well I am just going to go so I can head back to watching tv.
Post something new soon
Love
Kenz<3
This week has been really chill somewhat. I worked on Monday morning and left and come to Nise's that night so I could take care of her for the week seeing how she just had her surgery last Friday. Which everything went amazing and could not ask for more.
I have had a great time just chilling at the house. Pretty much watched tons of CSI and NCIS. But I leave tomorrow to go back home and then of course I go straight back to work on Friday morning. I wish I would get sometime with Jesse but that is life I guess.
Hope next weekend will be great cause we are coming back to Nise's for Thanksgiving and then coming back to Anderson for the BIGGEST GAME OF THE SEASON CLEMSON vs. CAROLINA!!! I truly cannot wait to be able to spend that time with my love.
Well I am just going to go so I can head back to watching tv.
Post something new soon
Love
Kenz<3
Tuesday, October 26, 2010
Amazing 11 months
With every laugh, every fight, every tear good and bad I am so glad that I get to share a lifetime of amazing times together. We still have a long time ahead of us and I truly cannot wait to share this with him.
I LOVE YOU MORE THAN YOU WILL EVER KNOW JESSE HESTER.
Tuesday, October 19, 2010
Colder Weather...
Truly hope that everyone is having a great month of October, with all the fall weather coming in I am really excited that it is my favorite time of the year. I know that I have really posted anything in a few weeks but I have been so busy working third that I really hadn't had time. But I finally have time to type out a blog and I really have a lot to talk about.
Well the last news that has been going on that Mot last week had to have an emergency surgery on an ulcer. Then the next morning around 3:30 she inhaled fluid into her lungs and was unresponsive, which got her a trip to ICU where she spent two days there. Finally she was discharged home but had to come home on oxygen and taking breathing treatments. Other than that she is doing better.
Then even worst news (I know how could it get worst). October 9, 2010 at about 10 in the morning Gladys Richey (Mot's best friend of 45 years) lost her battle with Stage 4 Ovarian Cancer. Gladys was like another grandmother to me. Jim and Gladys was who we would go to the Clemson games with. She was a wonderful Godly woman and will be greatly missed.
Through all of this that was going on I was trying to get to spend some time with my best friend and the love of my life. It has been a truly long two weeks of fighting to find time. So Friday night he was working but did still take me to eat at Five Guys in Greenville and took me to walk around Academy for a little while. Then Saturday after he went hunting and I went to the game, we met up and went to eat with Eric and Nicole plus the kids at Silver Bay. Took a little trip with them to Walmart and went back to their house and had us a little bonfire out back of their house. Then Sunday we went to his dads for a little while before I had to go to work. So this weekend so better but I still wish I could spend some time just us. Hopefully I will be able to have that this weekend.
This week is going to be so crazy too because we are having revival at church. So if yall want something to do and something that will be a blessing come to Enon Baptist Church in Easley, SC this week till Thursday night it starts at 7pm each night. But everyone should come on Wednesday night. Wednesday is our Youth Night. My Acteens will be performing their movement routine that I teach on Wednesday nights that night for the music special.
Which is another reason why I have been so busy trying to getting everything up for them. We are ordering shirts for them to wear for dance and for our trip next weekend to the Carolina Girls in North Carolina. I am really excited cause I get to spend the weekend with my wonderful girls and my wonderful mother-in-law (well not yet but she will be someday and trust me she is wonderful and love her very much).
So the next few weeks will be crazy.
*Revival: this week
*Clemson vs Georgia Tech at Home: this Saturday
*Trunk-A-Treat: next Wednesday night at Enon at 6:30 (everyone invited)
*Carolina Girls: next weekend
*Nise's Surgery: first week in November
*Then getting ready for Thanksgiving, One Year Anniversary, Clemson vs Carolina Game
I know just thinking about the next few months and weeks is mind blowing. I just can't believe that in a month Jesse and I will be celebrating our one year anniversary together. What should we do hummmmmm.
Nise Cancer Report:
Ok so Nise is finally done with all chemo right now. YAY!!!! She will go for her surgery the first week in November. I am off to go down and take care of her. So everyone continue to pray that the surgery will go just as well as the chemo has and that the recovery part is very speedy.
Well I am going to get off. Hopefully I got everyone updated. I will try to find sometime to post really soon.
Kenz
Well the last news that has been going on that Mot last week had to have an emergency surgery on an ulcer. Then the next morning around 3:30 she inhaled fluid into her lungs and was unresponsive, which got her a trip to ICU where she spent two days there. Finally she was discharged home but had to come home on oxygen and taking breathing treatments. Other than that she is doing better.
Then even worst news (I know how could it get worst). October 9, 2010 at about 10 in the morning Gladys Richey (Mot's best friend of 45 years) lost her battle with Stage 4 Ovarian Cancer. Gladys was like another grandmother to me. Jim and Gladys was who we would go to the Clemson games with. She was a wonderful Godly woman and will be greatly missed.
Through all of this that was going on I was trying to get to spend some time with my best friend and the love of my life. It has been a truly long two weeks of fighting to find time. So Friday night he was working but did still take me to eat at Five Guys in Greenville and took me to walk around Academy for a little while. Then Saturday after he went hunting and I went to the game, we met up and went to eat with Eric and Nicole plus the kids at Silver Bay. Took a little trip with them to Walmart and went back to their house and had us a little bonfire out back of their house. Then Sunday we went to his dads for a little while before I had to go to work. So this weekend so better but I still wish I could spend some time just us. Hopefully I will be able to have that this weekend.
This week is going to be so crazy too because we are having revival at church. So if yall want something to do and something that will be a blessing come to Enon Baptist Church in Easley, SC this week till Thursday night it starts at 7pm each night. But everyone should come on Wednesday night. Wednesday is our Youth Night. My Acteens will be performing their movement routine that I teach on Wednesday nights that night for the music special.
Which is another reason why I have been so busy trying to getting everything up for them. We are ordering shirts for them to wear for dance and for our trip next weekend to the Carolina Girls in North Carolina. I am really excited cause I get to spend the weekend with my wonderful girls and my wonderful mother-in-law (well not yet but she will be someday and trust me she is wonderful and love her very much).
So the next few weeks will be crazy.
*Revival: this week
*Clemson vs Georgia Tech at Home: this Saturday
*Trunk-A-Treat: next Wednesday night at Enon at 6:30 (everyone invited)
*Carolina Girls: next weekend
*Nise's Surgery: first week in November
*Then getting ready for Thanksgiving, One Year Anniversary, Clemson vs Carolina Game
I know just thinking about the next few months and weeks is mind blowing. I just can't believe that in a month Jesse and I will be celebrating our one year anniversary together. What should we do hummmmmm.
Nise Cancer Report:
Ok so Nise is finally done with all chemo right now. YAY!!!! She will go for her surgery the first week in November. I am off to go down and take care of her. So everyone continue to pray that the surgery will go just as well as the chemo has and that the recovery part is very speedy.
Well I am going to get off. Hopefully I got everyone updated. I will try to find sometime to post really soon.
Kenz
Monday, October 4, 2010
Fall Is Truly Here....
Well Happy Fall everyone...
It is truly fall now and I could not be more excited. Fall is my favorite time of the year. Everything about it just makes everything feel prefect. I am so excited. The cool in the air, the leaves, bonfires, blankets and hoodies. I am so amazed by it all.
I am hoping that maybe this weekend before deer hunting starts and since Clemson is away, Jesse and I can take a little early fall vacation up to the mountains. We need something like that since we are closing up everything that has been going on in our life lately and fixing to start a very busy time in our lives and stress on a relationship called HUNTING SEASON!!! I am excited at the same time because I know I will get to go with Jesse some but it is still a stress on us but I know God will work it all out.
I am so tired sitting here writing this because I woke up at like7-7:30 Sunday morning went to church and didn't take a nap before going to work 12 hours last night but then ended up working over till almost 8:30 cause I watched the desk while the staff meeting went on but then went and got about a hour of sleep with Jesse. After that went to his papa's house and ate the doves that we killed finally. Oh and yesterday I got to watch Jesse, Chris and Terry cut the balls of 4 pigs yesterday afternoon which was super cool!!!
So anyway I am going to go and try and get some sleep I will try and post something soon. Hope everyone has a great night
Love,
Kenz<3
It is truly fall now and I could not be more excited. Fall is my favorite time of the year. Everything about it just makes everything feel prefect. I am so excited. The cool in the air, the leaves, bonfires, blankets and hoodies. I am so amazed by it all.
I am hoping that maybe this weekend before deer hunting starts and since Clemson is away, Jesse and I can take a little early fall vacation up to the mountains. We need something like that since we are closing up everything that has been going on in our life lately and fixing to start a very busy time in our lives and stress on a relationship called HUNTING SEASON!!! I am excited at the same time because I know I will get to go with Jesse some but it is still a stress on us but I know God will work it all out.
I am so tired sitting here writing this because I woke up at like7-7:30 Sunday morning went to church and didn't take a nap before going to work 12 hours last night but then ended up working over till almost 8:30 cause I watched the desk while the staff meeting went on but then went and got about a hour of sleep with Jesse. After that went to his papa's house and ate the doves that we killed finally. Oh and yesterday I got to watch Jesse, Chris and Terry cut the balls of 4 pigs yesterday afternoon which was super cool!!!
So anyway I am going to go and try and get some sleep I will try and post something soon. Hope everyone has a great night
Love,
Kenz<3
Wednesday, September 29, 2010
Fall Late Nights
In a few hours guys I will have to be starting my very very long day and I still have yet to fall asleep. Just the past few days have been long so I can't sleep. Lets see it all start with Sunday I got up and went to church and then of course worked 7p-7a after that Monday I didn't really sleep cause I was off that night and I wouldn't have slept that night if I slept all day. So I was planning on going with Jesse and looking at a new truck for him but he never texted me ore nothing. Which of course lead to a big fight that has been going on all day still. It just ticked me off because after wanting to be apart of the whole buying the new truck and wanting him to think about us before he brought it and getting fussed out for that. He turned right around and asked for my help with buying the truck. He doesn't see how buying a new truck will affect me in the years to come. But this truck is some much smaller than his dodge and better on gas I get that. But trust me when we do have kids there is no way he will be able to put a car seat in the back like he would have in the dodge. I know I know but he even says his self that the reason he brought the dodge was because it was what he wanted first and the it was very roomy to fit a family in. He just doesn't think, so we have been fussing about that. Well then I am working 11p-7a Wednesday night and 7p-7a Thursday, so since no sleeping tonight I am going to be really struggling then. Plus I have church before work and I have to be at Jesse's house to leave to take the new truck back to the Ford dealership at 7:30am so we are going to have to find a little time for a nap in somewhere between all this.
Even though me and Jesse have been fighting the pass two days now, I was listening on the radio on my way home tonight and this amazing song came on the radio of course I thought that one day the words to this song would be just for Jesse but as I thought more and more the words to the song has been the example my daddy has been sitting the past 7 years. Between raising a family with two girls, be a husband and working second and third shift and plus working two jobs at a time and going back to school full time I know that no matter how hard life seems to be God will get us through everything that he puts in front of us. As long as we still do the things he has commanded us to. And I believe that my daddy has done just that. He has been a great example of a Family Man. Plus I see so much of Jesse being just like him. So I know everyone is wanting to know this song...Family Man by Craig Campbell:
Even though me and Jesse have been fighting the pass two days now, I was listening on the radio on my way home tonight and this amazing song came on the radio of course I thought that one day the words to this song would be just for Jesse but as I thought more and more the words to the song has been the example my daddy has been sitting the past 7 years. Between raising a family with two girls, be a husband and working second and third shift and plus working two jobs at a time and going back to school full time I know that no matter how hard life seems to be God will get us through everything that he puts in front of us. As long as we still do the things he has commanded us to. And I believe that my daddy has done just that. He has been a great example of a Family Man. Plus I see so much of Jesse being just like him. So I know everyone is wanting to know this song...Family Man by Craig Campbell:
I've been working as a temp
At the local factory
I hope they hire me on full time
I've got shoes to buy
and a mouth to feed.
I drive a buy here, pay here truck
It ain't new, but it is for me
It ain't much but it fires right up
and get me from A to B
What puts the dirt underneath my nails
What keeps the calluses on my hands
Family man
They're a world my world revolves around
My sacred piece of solid ground
The flesh and bone that gives me strength to stand
They are a fire in my drivin on
The drive behind my comin home
The livin, breathin, reason that I am
A family man
There's dirty shirts to wash
Dishes in the sink to do
And there's how many times
Does 17 go into 52
There's bedtime prayers to pray
Sleep tights and I love you's
And then there's a pair of eyes
I get to lose myself into
What keeps me keepin the faith
What makes me believe I can
Family man
They're a world my world revolves around
My sacred piece of solid ground
The flesh and bone that gives me strength to stand
They are a fire in my drivin on
The drive behind my comin home
The livin, breathin, reason that I am
A family man
There's a fire in my drivin on
The drive behind my comin home
The livin, breathin, reason that I am
A family man
A family man
At the local factory
I hope they hire me on full time
I've got shoes to buy
and a mouth to feed.
I drive a buy here, pay here truck
It ain't new, but it is for me
It ain't much but it fires right up
and get me from A to B
What puts the dirt underneath my nails
What keeps the calluses on my hands
Family man
They're a world my world revolves around
My sacred piece of solid ground
The flesh and bone that gives me strength to stand
They are a fire in my drivin on
The drive behind my comin home
The livin, breathin, reason that I am
A family man
There's dirty shirts to wash
Dishes in the sink to do
And there's how many times
Does 17 go into 52
There's bedtime prayers to pray
Sleep tights and I love you's
And then there's a pair of eyes
I get to lose myself into
What keeps me keepin the faith
What makes me believe I can
Family man
They're a world my world revolves around
My sacred piece of solid ground
The flesh and bone that gives me strength to stand
They are a fire in my drivin on
The drive behind my comin home
The livin, breathin, reason that I am
A family man
There's a fire in my drivin on
The drive behind my comin home
The livin, breathin, reason that I am
A family man
A family man
Always the words to the song has even been my life for the past three months with Jesse and I am so thankful that we had that time together and even now the time we are getting to spend together as well. Of course life has been no cake walk and things have been hard but with God and love we have so how gotten through it. And even after all the tears and hard words that were said, we have some how made it through even when it has never looked like it. I am truly thankful for that.
It was hard to believe Saturday Jesse and I had been together for 10 months and November will be our year anniversary. I think and remember what my life was like just a year ago and I would have never dreamed that my life would have turned out this right. I am so thankful for thank. This year has been one to remember for everything that I have been blessed with.
So since this has been really my first blog this fall I haven't really got to talk about my Tigers. The first game which was September 4 was against North Texas which we won, second game September 11 against PC was another win for the Tigers, then the third game was at Auburn which was lost by a field goal in over time... What a heart breaker that game was. We were off this past weekend but Jesse's Gamecocks which were 3-0 went and played Auburn (so the week after we beat up on them). Everyone thought they were so good this year well they lost the game by 8points and it was in regular playing time. So looks like we just might have a chance this November. So anyways this Saturday we play at 12 against Miami for Homecoming. Well Jesse is going with me and I am super excited. Even though he won't cheer for Clemson but that will be ok he is just still go which is all that matters.
NISE'S CANCER REPORT:
Well Nis is doing so great right now. She has one more chemo treatment, which is Oct. 4 so which is next Monday and then they will schedule her surgery. They say will be the first or second week in November. I am so thankful for all the prayers and everything from everyone we are almost half way done with part of the battle. We are praying that she does just as great with the surgery as she has with the chemo. Everyone keep the prayers going we are greatly thankful for them.
Anyways I will try and post something last since I have a long next two days ahead of me. Hope everyone keeps enjoy this new cool weather we are having and have a great day. Love yall
Ken<3
Friday, September 3, 2010
Really Been Putting Off
So every time I get on the post something it is like everything just leaves me and I truly don't know what to write. But I am on a mission to post something today. The past week has been really good and I can't wait for the next few months. I know I don't need to wish my life away but it is truly exciting. I am picking up some more hours at work cause ok big news. Jesse quit his job a St Jude. I know I prayed he would get the job but the working everyday and the long hour plus all the drama was killing him, killing me, and our relationship, plus the most important time for church and everything God has truly blessed us with. The moment we were standing in Firehouse when Charlie called and asked him about everything he needed to know about coming back full time at the shop his mood was changed. For the first time in months there was a smile that lite up his whole face and everything just seemed right. He hugged me in a way he hasn't in months and I will never forget that. I just now pray that this was the right thing and God will bless us because we are going to both have to help each other.
Then plus the first Clemson game is TOMORROW so ready for my boys to take the field again and show people how to play some football. Kickoff is at 3:30 in Death Valley against North Texas and I am taking my best Friend Jenna. I truly can't wait.
On top of all this it is Labor Day weekend and Jesse and I are both off for the holiday. He is taking me Dove Hunting (OH LORD HELP). Wish I am really happy I get to tag along with him.
But anyways I am going to run there will be pics to come of the upcoming events and plus I think tonight me and Jesse are going to the rodeo at the fair so even pics of that.
Love
Kenz<3
Then plus the first Clemson game is TOMORROW so ready for my boys to take the field again and show people how to play some football. Kickoff is at 3:30 in Death Valley against North Texas and I am taking my best Friend Jenna. I truly can't wait.
On top of all this it is Labor Day weekend and Jesse and I are both off for the holiday. He is taking me Dove Hunting (OH LORD HELP). Wish I am really happy I get to tag along with him.
But anyways I am going to run there will be pics to come of the upcoming events and plus I think tonight me and Jesse are going to the rodeo at the fair so even pics of that.
Love
Kenz<3
Tuesday, August 24, 2010
Sunday, August 22, 2010
Third Shift Night...
Hey Guys,
Ok yes I know I have been a little off with updating and everything. So while I have a min I was going to try to get a little update in.
The last post I posted was when we were fixing to leave for the beach. Which the beach was amazing. We had a wonderful together down in Destin. Even though the June grass was in, it was still so beautiful. I think I have Jess hooked for life now.
We left Sunday night after Jess got off of work and drive straight down to the beach. Jess surprised me he drove the whole way to Florida and then 20 miles past the state line he pulled over and gave the wheel to me. The drive down there was great. Even though I about throw the lying whore aka the GPS out the window five thousand times. (Which the GPS caused a fuss between us but just one we got over after Jess found out I was right when we talked to Daddy on the phone). Then of course Jess thought it would be smart to try and tell me he was right about something about Clemson Football (come on now really?). But because of all that we had a great time laugh and just being together. We ended up getting there around 2:00 (Florida time so 3:00 here). Monday, we got up and went and spent all day on the beach. Of course Jess had to go swimming with his phone that day. Which was a mess in itself. We had to call AT&T get them to over-night him a phone because his was fried, go to AT&T down there get a new sims card, get his calls transferred to my phone until he got his new one. All best he didn't want to miss the call on his truck (lol). Well that night we also had a date night just us to. We went to Bass Pro, O'Charley's, and of course Wal-mart. Tuesday was the same thing but that night we ate in with mama and daddy. After dinner Jess, Chan, and I went back to Wal-mart. Jess brought me a shirt (very cute) and then after Wal-mart we had to the HOT & NOW SIGN that was on and get 2 dozen of doughnuts which where gone by Wednesday morning (I swear we are such pigs.). Wednesday was our last day in Destin. We went and spent the morning on the beach and at lunch time we came end because of the rain. Wednesday was dinner out night with the whole family, we ended up eating at Cheeseburger and Paradise. It was ok not wonderful but ok. After that we ended up going shopping. Of course back to the Bass Pro, the shops around there, Bed Bath & Beyond, and of course one of my favorites Rue 21. After all that walking we headed back to the house where we watch a movie together and had so good ole family time. Thursday morning Jess and I got up at 4 and packed up and left around 5:30 (Florida time) and got home around 3pm (our time). It would have been sooner but we stop and ate breakfast at Huddle House right as you come into Alabama and ate lunch at DQ in Georgia. But our beach trip was amazing and a much need trip at that.
Of course I have tons of pics and I will post some soon just can't at work but will when I get home.
Well that was beach week then there is this week to update as well.
Monday I had a eye doctor appointment and I swear I really do have the best boyfriend ever. That morning he got up and took me. Then not only that he ended up buying my new glasses for me. (Which I will post a pic of too). Then for lunch we went to lunch with my Nanny. It ended up being Jess, Me, Chan, Emily, Ally, her little friend, and Nanny at J Peters (so good if you like Copper River you will love this place) but take someone to share with it is really a lot of food.
Tuesday, I was a good girlfriend and returned the favor by getting up and going with him to Pickens to get his pipes ran out the back of his truck. Which seem to take forever and a day. After that we got a pizza and cuddled up on the couch until time for him to go to work like always.
Wednesday we had a laid back day of sleeping in and not doing anything. The same with Thursday but we also cleaned out my closet which took half the afternoon till I had to go to work at 7pm. Thursday I got pulled to CCU so I signed up for a so extra days which tonight was one of them and Monday night will be another.
Then Friday I some what slept. That night we went to eat at Cracker Barrel for Jesse's Papa Tony's birthday. Which then that night I went to the church and helped with the Youth Lock-In while Jess slept away in the bed. I truly had so much fun even though I didn't get any sleep.
Which bring me today. We went down for the MaMahan Family Reunion. Well Mot, Mama, and Me went. After that we took our trip to Wal-mart in the rain. Then I was off to Liberty, where I took another trip to Wal-mart with Jess and got some dinner before coming to work tonight at 11pm.
So I guess the plan for the next few days is...
But the only bad thing is everyone needs to keep praying Mot's best friend Gladys was diagnosed with Cancer so we are keeping our fingers crossed and praying everything goes like it should.
Nise's Cancer Report:
Nise has been doing amazing. She has had so much energy to be going to going through all this. She went last with to the surgeon and He said the surgery will most likely be either the first or second week in November. She is half way done with chemo and goes Monday for her 4th treatment so everyone keep praying. Her blood work has been looking good so we are praying and keeping our fingers crossed. We thank yall so much for all the prays and hopefully everything will keep going great.
So I am going to run I will post pics this morning when I get home.
Love,
Kenz<3
Ok yes I know I have been a little off with updating and everything. So while I have a min I was going to try to get a little update in.
The last post I posted was when we were fixing to leave for the beach. Which the beach was amazing. We had a wonderful together down in Destin. Even though the June grass was in, it was still so beautiful. I think I have Jess hooked for life now.
We left Sunday night after Jess got off of work and drive straight down to the beach. Jess surprised me he drove the whole way to Florida and then 20 miles past the state line he pulled over and gave the wheel to me. The drive down there was great. Even though I about throw the lying whore aka the GPS out the window five thousand times. (Which the GPS caused a fuss between us but just one we got over after Jess found out I was right when we talked to Daddy on the phone). Then of course Jess thought it would be smart to try and tell me he was right about something about Clemson Football (come on now really?). But because of all that we had a great time laugh and just being together. We ended up getting there around 2:00 (Florida time so 3:00 here). Monday, we got up and went and spent all day on the beach. Of course Jess had to go swimming with his phone that day. Which was a mess in itself. We had to call AT&T get them to over-night him a phone because his was fried, go to AT&T down there get a new sims card, get his calls transferred to my phone until he got his new one. All best he didn't want to miss the call on his truck (lol). Well that night we also had a date night just us to. We went to Bass Pro, O'Charley's, and of course Wal-mart. Tuesday was the same thing but that night we ate in with mama and daddy. After dinner Jess, Chan, and I went back to Wal-mart. Jess brought me a shirt (very cute) and then after Wal-mart we had to the HOT & NOW SIGN that was on and get 2 dozen of doughnuts which where gone by Wednesday morning (I swear we are such pigs.). Wednesday was our last day in Destin. We went and spent the morning on the beach and at lunch time we came end because of the rain. Wednesday was dinner out night with the whole family, we ended up eating at Cheeseburger and Paradise. It was ok not wonderful but ok. After that we ended up going shopping. Of course back to the Bass Pro, the shops around there, Bed Bath & Beyond, and of course one of my favorites Rue 21. After all that walking we headed back to the house where we watch a movie together and had so good ole family time. Thursday morning Jess and I got up at 4 and packed up and left around 5:30 (Florida time) and got home around 3pm (our time). It would have been sooner but we stop and ate breakfast at Huddle House right as you come into Alabama and ate lunch at DQ in Georgia. But our beach trip was amazing and a much need trip at that.
Of course I have tons of pics and I will post some soon just can't at work but will when I get home.
Well that was beach week then there is this week to update as well.
Monday I had a eye doctor appointment and I swear I really do have the best boyfriend ever. That morning he got up and took me. Then not only that he ended up buying my new glasses for me. (Which I will post a pic of too). Then for lunch we went to lunch with my Nanny. It ended up being Jess, Me, Chan, Emily, Ally, her little friend, and Nanny at J Peters (so good if you like Copper River you will love this place) but take someone to share with it is really a lot of food.
Tuesday, I was a good girlfriend and returned the favor by getting up and going with him to Pickens to get his pipes ran out the back of his truck. Which seem to take forever and a day. After that we got a pizza and cuddled up on the couch until time for him to go to work like always.
Wednesday we had a laid back day of sleeping in and not doing anything. The same with Thursday but we also cleaned out my closet which took half the afternoon till I had to go to work at 7pm. Thursday I got pulled to CCU so I signed up for a so extra days which tonight was one of them and Monday night will be another.
Then Friday I some what slept. That night we went to eat at Cracker Barrel for Jesse's Papa Tony's birthday. Which then that night I went to the church and helped with the Youth Lock-In while Jess slept away in the bed. I truly had so much fun even though I didn't get any sleep.
Which bring me today. We went down for the MaMahan Family Reunion. Well Mot, Mama, and Me went. After that we took our trip to Wal-mart in the rain. Then I was off to Liberty, where I took another trip to Wal-mart with Jess and got some dinner before coming to work tonight at 11pm.
So I guess the plan for the next few days is...
- Church in the morning
- Sleep after that
- Work again tonight
- Sleep Monday morning
- Little time with Jess
- Work Monday night
- Then Sleep Tuesday morning
- And enjoy the next two days off by spending them with Jess
But the only bad thing is everyone needs to keep praying Mot's best friend Gladys was diagnosed with Cancer so we are keeping our fingers crossed and praying everything goes like it should.
Nise's Cancer Report:
Nise has been doing amazing. She has had so much energy to be going to going through all this. She went last with to the surgeon and He said the surgery will most likely be either the first or second week in November. She is half way done with chemo and goes Monday for her 4th treatment so everyone keep praying. Her blood work has been looking good so we are praying and keeping our fingers crossed. We thank yall so much for all the prays and hopefully everything will keep going great.
So I am going to run I will post pics this morning when I get home.
Love,
Kenz<3
Friday, August 6, 2010
Beach Bound...WELL ALMOST
Hey everyone...Well I know that the summer is almost over and everyone is getting ready for school and all kinda was stuff. But me, I am fixing to leave to go to the beach!!! Yay I cannot wait. I have had to wait all summer and finally get to take off to the beach with Jess. I have been trying to get everything up and ready for us to leave on Sunday. Just have been so hard cause I have had a really bad week with work and everything going on with me and Jess.
I am just so ready for the fight and fussing to stop and I just hope that the beach trip kinda help with all of that. But anyways. I worked all this week so hopefully when I get back I will have a good pay check and some good hours waiting on me lol.
Well just wanted to update real quick...Heading out to get some stuff for the beach and try and find a white polo for Jess to wear for pics on the beach. Hopefully I will post something soon.
Love
Kenz<3
I am just so ready for the fight and fussing to stop and I just hope that the beach trip kinda help with all of that. But anyways. I worked all this week so hopefully when I get back I will have a good pay check and some good hours waiting on me lol.
Well just wanted to update real quick...Heading out to get some stuff for the beach and try and find a white polo for Jess to wear for pics on the beach. Hopefully I will post something soon.
Love
Kenz<3
Wednesday, July 28, 2010
Sweet Summertime
Well hope everyone's summer is going great. It doesn't even fell like it should almost be August but it is so. Anyways the past few weeks have been crazy for me so I really haven't got to update really so I figure while I got a few minutes I would fill everyone in on everything that has been going on.
Last week was such a crazy week I have class at work from 8-4 everyday and VBS 5:30-8:30 everyday after that. So I was pretty much so tired I could barely hold my eyes open at the end of the day. My class was really good. There were only three of us girls in there and we were all from the same floor so it was so much fun. Then VBS was amazing. I helped Joy (Jesse's mama) and Candy out with the music and had a blast laughing and cutting up learning the songs and dancing all week. We truly got our workout every night with jumping around with Yes to VBS. (Which we had to do like 6-7 times a night).
Plus my mama's 44th birthday was last week, so Saturday night we went out to eat at Outback to celebrate. Jess of course gave my mama payback for his birthday by telling them it was hers. Fun Times Fun Times.
Now the next two weeks are going to be me working on the floor learning my new stuff from class and then leaving for the beach and I cannot wait. Of course my parents get to leave that morning and I can't till that afternoon cause Jess could get off work which sucks royally. But like I have said I am just truly thankful he is getting to go with us to the beach. Everything is still looking good down in Destin as far as the oil leak goes and I am just praying it stays that way.
NISE"S CANCER REPORT:
Of course the report on Nise is that everything is going great. She has gone through two treatments now and the doctors are really excited on how the tumor is getting smaller with just those to treatments. She had a hard time last time bouncing back from this second treatment but she is doing great. So of course keep the prayers coming we need all the prayers we can get.
Well hope everyone has a great rest of the week hopefully I can post something really soon.
Love
Kenz<3
Last week was such a crazy week I have class at work from 8-4 everyday and VBS 5:30-8:30 everyday after that. So I was pretty much so tired I could barely hold my eyes open at the end of the day. My class was really good. There were only three of us girls in there and we were all from the same floor so it was so much fun. Then VBS was amazing. I helped Joy (Jesse's mama) and Candy out with the music and had a blast laughing and cutting up learning the songs and dancing all week. We truly got our workout every night with jumping around with Yes to VBS. (Which we had to do like 6-7 times a night).
Plus my mama's 44th birthday was last week, so Saturday night we went out to eat at Outback to celebrate. Jess of course gave my mama payback for his birthday by telling them it was hers. Fun Times Fun Times.
Now the next two weeks are going to be me working on the floor learning my new stuff from class and then leaving for the beach and I cannot wait. Of course my parents get to leave that morning and I can't till that afternoon cause Jess could get off work which sucks royally. But like I have said I am just truly thankful he is getting to go with us to the beach. Everything is still looking good down in Destin as far as the oil leak goes and I am just praying it stays that way.
NISE"S CANCER REPORT:
Of course the report on Nise is that everything is going great. She has gone through two treatments now and the doctors are really excited on how the tumor is getting smaller with just those to treatments. She had a hard time last time bouncing back from this second treatment but she is doing great. So of course keep the prayers coming we need all the prayers we can get.
Well hope everyone has a great rest of the week hopefully I can post something really soon.
Love
Kenz<3
Wednesday, July 14, 2010
Late Nights...
Hey guys...
Hope everyone had a great day yesterday and hopefully will have a great day today. It is like 3 in the morning and Jess is just now getting off so I still have about 30 more minutes till I head to bed. I will truly be glad when he gets off this crazy schedule and Our live can go back to working on a some what normal schedule. Now do not get my wrong, I love the fact that Jess works second so I get to see more of him during the week and He gets to stay here every night during the week but three so I think four out of seven is so much better than two out of seven. I just wish we could go to bed together at a reasonable hour and not at 4 in the morning.
Anyways now that I have got that off my chest I can finally let yall in on how today was. I will have to admit that we really didn't get out of be till 1:30 this afternoon. I know we were complete lazy butts. But anyways after taking forever to get up and get ready, we finally went to BK to eat lunch. Ok now for real this is a promise...If I have to eat another BK Hamburger again in the next few weeks I am going to scream. But anyways after eating lunch Jess left for lunch leaving me here to keep the dog. So Me and him went to my aunt mot's for a little while and ran around town for her. Then about 8:30 I went to eat dinner with Jess in Greenville where he is working tonight. Then I came home and have been taking care of the dog and knitting for a while trying to kill time before he gets of. Wish I am really ready to hit my pillow. Of course Spunky has been sleeping away in my lap.
So tonight I have made a choice that I really need to do something about the way I am looking these days. With just my clothes and stuff. Ok yes I could lose a few pounds but no 35-40 lbs like I lost this time last year. I was just looking about how I could just cut out all the snacking I do at home and there goes a few of the pounds I need to lose. Hopefully then I can be happy that I look really good for Jess. So who know maybe it will all work itself out. But I am going to hop off here, so I can make the bed up somewhat and go open the door so Jess can get in when he gets here which he just called saying he was on 85 so it should be about 20mins now so...Hopefully I can post something tomorrow or something. Hope everyone has a great day.
Love Kenz<3
Hope everyone had a great day yesterday and hopefully will have a great day today. It is like 3 in the morning and Jess is just now getting off so I still have about 30 more minutes till I head to bed. I will truly be glad when he gets off this crazy schedule and Our live can go back to working on a some what normal schedule. Now do not get my wrong, I love the fact that Jess works second so I get to see more of him during the week and He gets to stay here every night during the week but three so I think four out of seven is so much better than two out of seven. I just wish we could go to bed together at a reasonable hour and not at 4 in the morning.
Anyways now that I have got that off my chest I can finally let yall in on how today was. I will have to admit that we really didn't get out of be till 1:30 this afternoon. I know we were complete lazy butts. But anyways after taking forever to get up and get ready, we finally went to BK to eat lunch. Ok now for real this is a promise...If I have to eat another BK Hamburger again in the next few weeks I am going to scream. But anyways after eating lunch Jess left for lunch leaving me here to keep the dog. So Me and him went to my aunt mot's for a little while and ran around town for her. Then about 8:30 I went to eat dinner with Jess in Greenville where he is working tonight. Then I came home and have been taking care of the dog and knitting for a while trying to kill time before he gets of. Wish I am really ready to hit my pillow. Of course Spunky has been sleeping away in my lap.
So tonight I have made a choice that I really need to do something about the way I am looking these days. With just my clothes and stuff. Ok yes I could lose a few pounds but no 35-40 lbs like I lost this time last year. I was just looking about how I could just cut out all the snacking I do at home and there goes a few of the pounds I need to lose. Hopefully then I can be happy that I look really good for Jess. So who know maybe it will all work itself out. But I am going to hop off here, so I can make the bed up somewhat and go open the door so Jess can get in when he gets here which he just called saying he was on 85 so it should be about 20mins now so...Hopefully I can post something tomorrow or something. Hope everyone has a great day.
Love Kenz<3
Tuesday, July 13, 2010
Much Need Catch Up...
Hey guys...Hope everyone is doing great this week and had a wonderful weekend.
There is so much I need to catch up on since I really haven't blogged in about a week. Last week was such a great week. Sunday of course was the 4 of July. I ended up getting my schedule worked out where I got to be off all day with Jess, which was very nice since it was his first day off in almost 37 days. Sunday, really wasn't all that exciting. I got off work and came home and slept a little while. After getting in a good cat nap we got up and got dressed and went to Liberty to get stuff up for Jess for the week. Leaving Liberty was came and went to the mall for just a few minutes. Then came back to my house and ate a good dinner and headed down to the lake for the firework show with my family. Of course after that we had to stop at Walmart and get the stuff to take with us Monday.
Monday we got up at like around 5 and got our stuff and headed to the lake for the day. Jess and I stopped and ate breakfast. We got down to the lake right around 7am and stayed on the lake till about 6:30. Jess got so burnt, He was so red. All because he would not let me put any sunscreen on him till right when he started to burn (to late then babe). But we still had a lot of fun. We spent almost all day at the waterfall, swimming and falling asleep on the boat. I can't wait for him to have another day off like that.
Tuesday night, I took Chan and Anna and one of their friends bowling. We had a great time and it was really fun. I haven't been bowling since me and Jess started dating and that seems like forever ago.
The rest of the week has been pretty much calm and non eventful. Just that I worked on Thursday night and Jess has worked everyday this week like always. So not really exciting there but other than that everything is going good. I am keeping Joy's dog this week while her and Steve has gone to the beach. Next week is going to be the crazy week. I have class with work, and then VBS at night with church so it is going to be a crazy schedule. Anyways I am going to go dry my hair before Jess gets home since I finished painting my room and that to have a shower I was so nasty. Hope everyone has a great week I will try to post something later.
Love Kenz<3
Monday we got up at like around 5 and got our stuff and headed to the lake for the day. Jess and I stopped and ate breakfast. We got down to the lake right around 7am and stayed on the lake till about 6:30. Jess got so burnt, He was so red. All because he would not let me put any sunscreen on him till right when he started to burn (to late then babe). But we still had a lot of fun. We spent almost all day at the waterfall, swimming and falling asleep on the boat. I can't wait for him to have another day off like that.
Love Kenz<3
Sunday, July 4, 2010
One More Hour Feels Like One More Year...
Well, it is finally getting here. One more hour and I am running for the door. I swear this has been the longest night of my life. We are still left with our five patients who have been very good all night now worries here. I truly cannot wait to head out that door and run for the hills. The next two days I pray will be wonderful. I will give you all the low down soon. Hope everyone is sleeping well. I will be here in about a little over an hour. Well good night from me
Kenz<3
Kenz<3
Saturday, July 3, 2010
So want to be at Home!
Right now working third shift is the last place I want to be. I would so much rather be at home with the love of my life who I haven't seen since Thursday night and it is truly killing me. So with saying that it comes to the conculsion that I didn't get to go eat lunch with him today. Pretty much the big to-do list was a big fat joke. All I got done today was sleep and nothing else. Which was kinda good since tomorrow all I am going to want to do is spend my time with the man of my dreams. I just really hope the rest of our weekend with me great. No fussing or fighting. I know I am praying so hard for that to happen.
Tonight Jess is staying at the house while I work so he will be there tomorrow when I get off at 7 in the morning. Which they all know here at work that when the person on first gets here and I give report I am out the door. You will never see me run for the door as fast as I will in the morning.
Right now we have really good patients and we are just praying to keep these patients and not get anymore. But it is truly scary with it being a holiday weekend for a Neuro floor especially Neuro ICU cause we will get all the head trauma that rolls in this weekend.
So I am super excited for my meal break night because mama cooked ribs and they look amazing. Jess said that they were the best he ever had, so that is a plus for him to say that. (Ok you can tell I have good patients because of all my talk) (lol). Anyways...
Hopefully this week I will get to go hang out with one of my friends who I love dearly and cannot wait to tell her about what all is going on with me. I really haven't got to hang out with her at all the last few monthes with both of our schedules so hopefully everything will work out right.
So this is really not good I am getting my needs to spend spend spend money and I really need to be saving it. I know that I need to just stay away from everything because if I don't I will have spent all my money...Which sucks!!! I know that it is crazy to think what it comes from but I am just freaking out. I know it is from all the stress of life and the things going on around me. But anyways...
I am going to go try to find some work. Maybe I will try to post how the night goes a little later.
Love ya,
Kenz<3
Tonight Jess is staying at the house while I work so he will be there tomorrow when I get off at 7 in the morning. Which they all know here at work that when the person on first gets here and I give report I am out the door. You will never see me run for the door as fast as I will in the morning.
Right now we have really good patients and we are just praying to keep these patients and not get anymore. But it is truly scary with it being a holiday weekend for a Neuro floor especially Neuro ICU cause we will get all the head trauma that rolls in this weekend.
So I am super excited for my meal break night because mama cooked ribs and they look amazing. Jess said that they were the best he ever had, so that is a plus for him to say that. (Ok you can tell I have good patients because of all my talk) (lol). Anyways...
Hopefully this week I will get to go hang out with one of my friends who I love dearly and cannot wait to tell her about what all is going on with me. I really haven't got to hang out with her at all the last few monthes with both of our schedules so hopefully everything will work out right.
So this is really not good I am getting my needs to spend spend spend money and I really need to be saving it. I know that I need to just stay away from everything because if I don't I will have spent all my money...Which sucks!!! I know that it is crazy to think what it comes from but I am just freaking out. I know it is from all the stress of life and the things going on around me. But anyways...
I am going to go try to find some work. Maybe I will try to post how the night goes a little later.
Love ya,
Kenz<3
The Night Is Almost Over
I have about one more hour to go and I am just ready for 7 to get here so I can hit the door a running. I am just ready to be off. I have so many things to do today before I get back here at 7 tonight for one more night and then off for four days. (YAY!!!). So I have wrote out my to-do list for the day and hopefully I will get it done before work tonight.
TO-DO for July 3
*GET A LITTLE BIT OF SLEEP
*Finishing taking the stuff down from my walls in my bedroom
*Finishing filling in the nail whole in the walls
MAYBE...*Go eat lunch with Jess
*Wash some clothes
*Start taping the trim in the bedroom
See so much to do and so little time before 7 tonight. I am just ready to be off and to get to spend some amazing time with Jess. It truly does seem like forever since we have had time together, just me and him. So you know I will be posting pics for yall don't worry about that. I can not wait.
Plans for this week:
*Sunday: Pool day with the family
(Cook out, Pool, and maybe go down to the lake with my family to watch fireworks.)
*Monday: LAKE DAY WITH JESS!!!!
*Tuesday: Paint Day...
(Jess just doesn't know how he is going to work but he will help!!!)
*Wednesday: Finish Paint Day and Church Night
*Thursday: Work 3rd shift...
*Friday: (Morning): Sleep (Night): Spending Time with Jess
*Saturday-Sunday Morning: Nise's House
*Sunday Night: Church with my baby
I swear you got to love my life. Well I am going to go finish my work and get out of here and get to my to-do list. Talk to yall soon
Kenz<3
TO-DO for July 3
*GET A LITTLE BIT OF SLEEP
*Finishing taking the stuff down from my walls in my bedroom
*Finishing filling in the nail whole in the walls
MAYBE...*Go eat lunch with Jess
*Wash some clothes
*Start taping the trim in the bedroom
See so much to do and so little time before 7 tonight. I am just ready to be off and to get to spend some amazing time with Jess. It truly does seem like forever since we have had time together, just me and him. So you know I will be posting pics for yall don't worry about that. I can not wait.
Plans for this week:
*Sunday: Pool day with the family
(Cook out, Pool, and maybe go down to the lake with my family to watch fireworks.)
*Monday: LAKE DAY WITH JESS!!!!
*Tuesday: Paint Day...
(Jess just doesn't know how he is going to work but he will help!!!)
*Wednesday: Finish Paint Day and Church Night
*Thursday: Work 3rd shift...
*Friday: (Morning): Sleep (Night): Spending Time with Jess
*Saturday-Sunday Morning: Nise's House
*Sunday Night: Church with my baby
I swear you got to love my life. Well I am going to go finish my work and get out of here and get to my to-do list. Talk to yall soon
Kenz<3
Friday, July 2, 2010
Night At Work...
Well it is Friday night and for the first time in a month I am at work and not spending it with Jess. It truly doesn't feel like Friday because of that reason. But of course it is not a great night. People are just really on edge I guess and heads are butting. So I have pretty much kept my mouth shut all night and just went on just counting down the hours till 7am. I swear it couldn't get here fast enough.
The past few days have been a little crazy anyways. Wednesday night I went to church by myself which feels really weird to do. I miss having Jess there with me. I guess I will have to get us to it for a while. Then I come home and my mama's best friend and her daughter was here from Charleston. Then of course the love of my life came home from lunch around 2:15am and everything was perfect. Thursday morning, we woke up and spent the day laying around the pool. Which was a lot of fun. Jess of course had to go to work at 2 (of course like always) so Chan and I went and picked up my Aunt Mot and did some running around town. Spending way to much of her money but hey it was stuff we needed. After all of that we went home and I got dressed and Chan, Karlee, and I went and met Jess in Greenville at his work when he got off at 8 so we could go eat. Jess took us girls to Sticky Fingers downtown. Which was fun for us because that was the first place we had a really date. After that we went home to get in the bed since Jess had to get up this morning at 4:30 and go to work. Vickie and Karlee went back home this morning, and I took off to town to find out how much a boat battery was and find some paint for my room. Monday since Jess is off we are going to the lake but the boat needs a new battery first. So that will have to be bought tomorrow. I got some really pretty paint for my room. HOT PINK AND CHOCOLATE BROWN!!! So Tuesday of this week coming will be paint day for me and of course I will drag Jess into this at least until he has to go to work.
We also got our Destin vacation finally planned so we are headed there August 8-13 which is really exciting and I truly can not wait for that. I am just praying that Jess can get off to go with us. Eveyrone keep praying.
NISE'S CANCER REPORT:
Nise is doing really good. She is starting to lose her hair but she is doing great. She told mama that even though her hair is coming out she still has more hair than Ralph which makes me laugh. She goes next Friday July 9 for her second treatment so we are praying that everything goes well. I am hopefully going to go down there that Saturday morning and just stay the night down there so I can see her since I haven't. We are still needing prayers. We are so thankful for every single one of them. It means a lot, this is a hard thing to face but we have God on our side. But I will keep the updates coming though.
Well I am going to get back to work for a little while maybe I will post how the night is going later when I get another little break. Yall have a great night. LOVE YA
Kenz<3
The past few days have been a little crazy anyways. Wednesday night I went to church by myself which feels really weird to do. I miss having Jess there with me. I guess I will have to get us to it for a while. Then I come home and my mama's best friend and her daughter was here from Charleston. Then of course the love of my life came home from lunch around 2:15am and everything was perfect. Thursday morning, we woke up and spent the day laying around the pool. Which was a lot of fun. Jess of course had to go to work at 2 (of course like always) so Chan and I went and picked up my Aunt Mot and did some running around town. Spending way to much of her money but hey it was stuff we needed. After all of that we went home and I got dressed and Chan, Karlee, and I went and met Jess in Greenville at his work when he got off at 8 so we could go eat. Jess took us girls to Sticky Fingers downtown. Which was fun for us because that was the first place we had a really date. After that we went home to get in the bed since Jess had to get up this morning at 4:30 and go to work. Vickie and Karlee went back home this morning, and I took off to town to find out how much a boat battery was and find some paint for my room. Monday since Jess is off we are going to the lake but the boat needs a new battery first. So that will have to be bought tomorrow. I got some really pretty paint for my room. HOT PINK AND CHOCOLATE BROWN!!! So Tuesday of this week coming will be paint day for me and of course I will drag Jess into this at least until he has to go to work.
We also got our Destin vacation finally planned so we are headed there August 8-13 which is really exciting and I truly can not wait for that. I am just praying that Jess can get off to go with us. Eveyrone keep praying.
NISE'S CANCER REPORT:
Nise is doing really good. She is starting to lose her hair but she is doing great. She told mama that even though her hair is coming out she still has more hair than Ralph which makes me laugh. She goes next Friday July 9 for her second treatment so we are praying that everything goes well. I am hopefully going to go down there that Saturday morning and just stay the night down there so I can see her since I haven't. We are still needing prayers. We are so thankful for every single one of them. It means a lot, this is a hard thing to face but we have God on our side. But I will keep the updates coming though.
Well I am going to get back to work for a little while maybe I will post how the night is going later when I get another little break. Yall have a great night. LOVE YA
Kenz<3
Thursday, July 1, 2010
Just Ready...
I am just ready for that break. That time where everything falls into place and everything is right. I seem to need catch the break that everyone else is catching. I can't see why I have to lose at everything that I do. I just want to have the right thing for once in my life. I know without any question that Jess is the love of my life. I am just ready for everything to be right. No more tears that run down my face because of the hurt and the fear that I have.
I never knew I would be the afraid to be hurt like I am now. I swear if I could let it go things could be so much better I just know it would. I know that Jess would never hurt me the way I was hurt before but after almost two years of being hurt the way I was it is hard to put it behind you and trust that no one else could hurt you like you were hurt. I am ready to fell the happiness that I want and need more than anything in this world.
I love Jess and he is my everything. I am so thankful for everything I have with him. He is such a hard worker at everything he does and I am so proud to call him mine. I am just praying so hard that he will be strong the next few months while working these two jobs. It is getting hard for him I just fell it but hes is hard-headed and strong welled so I know he will make it. But I am just worried that I am not strong enough for this. I keep praying every day that things will work and be great. He is there for me and that is all I could ask for.
Well now that I got all that off my chest I can fill in on the good stuff that has happened. So last night I got to take Chan and her friend Anna to see Eclipse at Midnight. I will have to say that was my favorite and the best one yet. I loved it. We got there like 3 hours before it started and got some of the best seats in the theater. Chan and Anna had their iPods so we were pretty busy listening to music and making fun of people in the theater. I swear I love those girls. After the awesome movie, Jess meet us at Waffle House or as he says "The Affle Waffle". I swear put Jess, Chan, and Anna together and you have a laugh that will last for like a hour. Well just had so much fun. Then today we just had a relaxing day and ended up going to get some ice cream from Fruit Punch (so good). So now I am just waiting on my love to get off. I can't wait to see him :)
I never knew I would be the afraid to be hurt like I am now. I swear if I could let it go things could be so much better I just know it would. I know that Jess would never hurt me the way I was hurt before but after almost two years of being hurt the way I was it is hard to put it behind you and trust that no one else could hurt you like you were hurt. I am ready to fell the happiness that I want and need more than anything in this world.
I love Jess and he is my everything. I am so thankful for everything I have with him. He is such a hard worker at everything he does and I am so proud to call him mine. I am just praying so hard that he will be strong the next few months while working these two jobs. It is getting hard for him I just fell it but hes is hard-headed and strong welled so I know he will make it. But I am just worried that I am not strong enough for this. I keep praying every day that things will work and be great. He is there for me and that is all I could ask for.
The girls and their iPods!!!
Waffle House after running in the rain
Kenz<3
Sunday, June 27, 2010
How Can You...
How can you feel one way and act the other. If he only knew how I felt about him he would understand the hurt that I feel at times. I truly want to spend the rest of my life with him. I have never wanting anything more than that but why do I feel scared and on edge all the time. He is my best friend, my everything, my soul mate. I want to be with him till death do us part that kinda thing. I am truly afraid that I will lose him and everything I have ever dreamed of. I am so afraid that my best friend is going to walk out the door and never return.
Jess,
I know that some of the things I say and do makes you want to pull your hair and shake some sense into me. But baby you are truly my everything. I love you with all my heart and soul. I could never ask for anyone better. I am truly in love with you. I want to spend the rest of my life with you as your wife. Being with you, caring for you, and standing beside you through everything life has in store for us. I am so thankful that I am blessed with you in my life. Nothing can never truly be anything more for me. I love you with everything I am.
Ken
I know that there will never be anything more for me. He is everything to me and I truly cannot wait to be his wife. Hopefully this will be the way I have always dreamed of.
Kenz<3
Jess,
I know that some of the things I say and do makes you want to pull your hair and shake some sense into me. But baby you are truly my everything. I love you with all my heart and soul. I could never ask for anyone better. I am truly in love with you. I want to spend the rest of my life with you as your wife. Being with you, caring for you, and standing beside you through everything life has in store for us. I am so thankful that I am blessed with you in my life. Nothing can never truly be anything more for me. I love you with everything I am.
Ken
I know that there will never be anything more for me. He is everything to me and I truly cannot wait to be his wife. Hopefully this will be the way I have always dreamed of.
Kenz<3
Saturday, June 26, 2010
Amazing Week and More To Come
Well this week has been amazing!!!
Monday afternoon, Jess found out that he was going to be moving to second shift at his job during the week so that way he could sleep a little more plus spend some more time with me. :) So Tuesday he started that. That day we spent the day in Easley so he could cut his papa grass. I had a great time just talking to his granny and spending time over there with him before he went to work. Wednesday, I ended up going into work that morning for four hours. After that I came home and we had a pool day before Jess had to go to work. I had never had so much fun in the pool.
Thursday was a day where we stay in our pj's and watched TV in bed all day. I loved it and I was so excited. Thursday night I worked third and came home Friday morning to find myself so nerves about Nise scan that I could not sleep.
Which I will have to say that God is so Good to us right now. The scan came back showing that the cancer was only in the breast and lymph nodes and no other organs. PRAISE GOD. Thank yall so much for all the prayers said lately but we are still fighting and are still needing them greatly. She is doing well though and started her chemo and doing well with it.
But hopefully things will be looking up soon. So after I got that news I finally relaxed a little and killed some time before going to my honey bunny house. We just hung around the house with his parents. So that brings us today. Which of course was work and then off to Liberty to spend some time with Jess. Tomorrow we both have to work tomorrow again.
I am off this week till Friday night and cant wait to spend some much needed time with my love. Tuesday night at midnight I am taking Chan and Anna to see Eclipse YAY!!!!!! I truly cannot wait.
I am off on the fourth and the next few days after the fourth. Jess and I are hopefully planning something for that Monday and maybe the fourth so we can spend some much needed time together. Everybody keep your fingers cross that it will all work out.
Well I am going to head to bed. I got to get up early in the morning to get Jess up for work and get me up and ready for work in the morning. Hopefully I can post something really soon.
KENZ<3
Monday afternoon, Jess found out that he was going to be moving to second shift at his job during the week so that way he could sleep a little more plus spend some more time with me. :) So Tuesday he started that. That day we spent the day in Easley so he could cut his papa grass. I had a great time just talking to his granny and spending time over there with him before he went to work. Wednesday, I ended up going into work that morning for four hours. After that I came home and we had a pool day before Jess had to go to work. I had never had so much fun in the pool.
Thursday was a day where we stay in our pj's and watched TV in bed all day. I loved it and I was so excited. Thursday night I worked third and came home Friday morning to find myself so nerves about Nise scan that I could not sleep.
Which I will have to say that God is so Good to us right now. The scan came back showing that the cancer was only in the breast and lymph nodes and no other organs. PRAISE GOD. Thank yall so much for all the prayers said lately but we are still fighting and are still needing them greatly. She is doing well though and started her chemo and doing well with it.
But hopefully things will be looking up soon. So after I got that news I finally relaxed a little and killed some time before going to my honey bunny house. We just hung around the house with his parents. So that brings us today. Which of course was work and then off to Liberty to spend some time with Jess. Tomorrow we both have to work tomorrow again.
I am off this week till Friday night and cant wait to spend some much needed time with my love. Tuesday night at midnight I am taking Chan and Anna to see Eclipse YAY!!!!!! I truly cannot wait.
I am off on the fourth and the next few days after the fourth. Jess and I are hopefully planning something for that Monday and maybe the fourth so we can spend some much needed time together. Everybody keep your fingers cross that it will all work out.
Well I am going to head to bed. I got to get up early in the morning to get Jess up for work and get me up and ready for work in the morning. Hopefully I can post something really soon.
KENZ<3
Tuesday, June 15, 2010
Couldn't Be More Thankful
Everybody keeps telling me I'm such a lucky man, Looking at you standing there I know I am.
Barefooted beauty with eyes that blue, sunshine sure looks good on you, I
swear.
Oh I can't believe I finally found ya baby,
Happy ever after after all this time.
Oh there's gonna be some ups and downs,
But with you to wrap my arms around, I'm fine.
So baby hold on tight, and don't let go. Hold on to the love we're making, Cause baby when the ground starts shaking you gotta know, When you got a good thing.
So baby hold on tight, and don't let go. Hold on to the love we're making, Cause baby when the ground starts shaking you gotta know, When you got a good thing.
You know you keep on bringing out the best in me,
And I need you now even more than the air I breathe.
You can make me laugh when I wanna cry,
This will last forever I just know. I know.
So baby hold on tight, and don't let go. Hold on to the love we're making, Cause baby when the ground starts shaking you gotta know, When you got a good thing.
So baby hold on tight, and don't let go. Hold on to the love we're making, Cause baby when the ground starts shaking you gotta know, When you got a good thing.
We got a good thing baby, woah.
So hold on tight, baby don't let go. Hold on to the love we're making, Cause baby when the ground starts shaking you gotta know, Oh you gotta know, oh you gotta know, you gotta know, When you got a good thing.
Ooooh ohh ohh.
We got a good thing, baby,
-Lady AntebellumSo hold on tight, baby don't let go. Hold on to the love we're making, Cause baby when the ground starts shaking you gotta know, Oh you gotta know, oh you gotta know, you gotta know, When you got a good thing.
Ooooh ohh ohh.
We got a good thing, baby,
I truly could not be more thankful for the man in my life right now. Through all the tough things we have come our way, he is staying right there holding my hand. I am truly blessed to have that in my life. But I have to be honest about the fear holding up inside the walls of my gut. The past weekend I have just felt sick because of fear. Fear that has over came me so many time before. Fear that has broken all of me and I am afraid that it is happening again.
This Friday Jess finally starts his second job, so now he will be working 7 days a week 10-12 hours a day. I have been in a relationship were the person works 7 days a week and I am afraid to have the same problems again. I know that I shouldn't but I do and I have cried and cried over this. I am afraid to tell Jess how and what I am going through so I haven't. I have kept quiet and let it built up inside of me. I just don't know how to explain that the feelings of scared and worry that I had a year ago is back and I am praying with everything I have in me that they go away and that I can take it. That our relationship with come out to a different way then the last. I am scared to lose him and I am praying so hard that it doesn't happen.
But beside all the worry that I have going on everything is going good with us. He has made me feel like no one else has and I am so thankful that I have that. Tonight I was at his house and I was standing there with the fridge door open and he walk up and kissed me on my forehead and I truly thought the world stood still in that very moment. I never got that before and to feel it has no words. I love Jess with my whole heart.
Well update on the Cancer side of our lives right now... My aunt starts her chemo on Friday and we are praying that everything goes well. I am praying that the tumor starts to go down in size in the next week treatments and not take so long. The faster it deceases the sooner the surgery and the sooner we will be on the road to cancer free. Just keep prayer I will keep you updated.
Other than all this going on life is going good and I am hoping it all stays that way. I hope everything is going good. Oh if anyone has or knows of any place on the cheap but warm side where me and Jess could have a little vacation here shortly that would be great I am ready to get out of this town for a little while with my man so ideas would be great.
Well I will post later. Oh I get my hair done Friday so I will post a new pic of that soon.
Kenz<3
Someday when I’m old I’ll be the only one
Who remembers you young and beautiful
Your dark hair falling on that pillowcase
All the secrets we shared, all the
love that we made
And I’ll hold onto those precious moments
Like pieces of gold Someday when I’m old
-Easton Corbin Saturday, June 12, 2010
Long Overdue Update
Summer is finally underway and it is have been full of nothing but work. But I guess that is ok. Last Friday though was a half and half day. That day I got off work and come home and went to bed. After getting some much needed sleep, I woke up to an amazing text message from Jess asking me out on a date. I mean really he really didn't have to ask me cause I will always say yes. So we went out to eat at Texas Roadhouse and had just an amazing time together. Of course we had to go to the mall cause what else is there to do in Anderson. After just the few fun hours the night come tumbling down. My mama called us to come to my aunt's house so she could explain to us that my Aunt Nise has Stage 3-A Breast Cancer.
So now the next few months is going to be a fight. She went to the doctor this week and they are starting a very powerful form of chemo next Friday. They are hoping that the chemo will decease the size of the tumor so they can do surgery and get all the cancer. The chemo can go on anywhere from 12-18 weeks going once every 3 weeks. Our family is asking for prayers so everyone keep us in yours.
So now I am pretty much caught up on the blog. So hopefully something will go on the is a little more happier and exciting happen soon.
Tuesday, June 1, 2010
All Night...
So yes I have pulled one of my famous all-nighters. Instead of going to bed anytime tonight I just stayed up all night. I really do think it happens when I get to be beside Jesse all weekend and then not having him here kills me. I just get so use to know that if I need him he will be there and really cant do that if I am in Anderson and He is in Liberty.
But I have chosen that I am going to stop bring up the whole marriage thing. I am just tired of talking about it and feeling like it goes in one ear and out the other. Yea don't get me wrong I really wish it would all change and we would get married but who know.
Ok I am just running my mouth now. I am going to try to take a little nap before I have to get ready for the day
Ken<3
But I have chosen that I am going to stop bring up the whole marriage thing. I am just tired of talking about it and feeling like it goes in one ear and out the other. Yea don't get me wrong I really wish it would all change and we would get married but who know.
Ok I am just running my mouth now. I am going to try to take a little nap before I have to get ready for the day
Ken<3
I know I know...
Ok yes I know I have been a little behind on the blogging just had so much going on the past few weeks that I feel like my head is going to blow off. Between work and just life, plus the whole trying to get caught up on all the sleep I lose each week. It has been all just pushing down like crazy.
I seem to have still not found anytime for Jess and me to get some pics done. Just driving me crazy. I feel like all the pics I have are holiday and us just fooling around on dates and around the house. I don't think it will be done anytime in the next month because my June schedule with work is pretty much blocking time for that off. I mean it looks like this:
*Thursdays 7pm-7am
*Saturdays 7am-7pm
*Sundays 7am-7pm
This is every week till June 26. So...yea and Jess works during the week so that doesn't happen. But I will have to say he is going back to working Saturdays at his first job till he gets his call from this new job which the time for that is 7am-3:30pm on a good day most of the time 4pm. So I will get to spend Saturday nights with my baby.
Any that one... Then I had talked about us just taking a little weekend trip somewhere. Well you can see how that is and Jess can't miss work right. We are really trying to save up the money for Destin in August. Plus he has got to fix to parts in his truck before then. Gosh all this money money money. So the trip will just have to wait till later. Even though I think we need something that will help us to get along better some how.
I know every relationship has it time, I am just freaking out that I will push and push to far. I seem to always do that. Plus I think I am just nervous cause Sunday it will have been ONE YEAR that my life has seem to be put in a spin. I am glad things have been changing I just truly cannot believe that a year has passed me by. That the things I thought I would have for the rest of my life have truly changed into the things that I have now. I am just scared something like that will happen again to me and I will break. I am on edge and I know it is not helping anything.
This weekend seemed to be even though I was putting in the Ativan to chill out the nerves that were coming on full time. I don't know how to stop them sometimes and I know I really cannot talk to Jess about them. But I don't know who else there is for me. I just hope that everything just will calm down.
Well I hoped everyone had a good holiday weekend. Post Later
Kenz<3
I seem to have still not found anytime for Jess and me to get some pics done. Just driving me crazy. I feel like all the pics I have are holiday and us just fooling around on dates and around the house. I don't think it will be done anytime in the next month because my June schedule with work is pretty much blocking time for that off. I mean it looks like this:
*Thursdays 7pm-7am
*Saturdays 7am-7pm
*Sundays 7am-7pm
This is every week till June 26. So...yea and Jess works during the week so that doesn't happen. But I will have to say he is going back to working Saturdays at his first job till he gets his call from this new job which the time for that is 7am-3:30pm on a good day most of the time 4pm. So I will get to spend Saturday nights with my baby.
Any that one... Then I had talked about us just taking a little weekend trip somewhere. Well you can see how that is and Jess can't miss work right. We are really trying to save up the money for Destin in August. Plus he has got to fix to parts in his truck before then. Gosh all this money money money. So the trip will just have to wait till later. Even though I think we need something that will help us to get along better some how.
I know every relationship has it time, I am just freaking out that I will push and push to far. I seem to always do that. Plus I think I am just nervous cause Sunday it will have been ONE YEAR that my life has seem to be put in a spin. I am glad things have been changing I just truly cannot believe that a year has passed me by. That the things I thought I would have for the rest of my life have truly changed into the things that I have now. I am just scared something like that will happen again to me and I will break. I am on edge and I know it is not helping anything.
This weekend seemed to be even though I was putting in the Ativan to chill out the nerves that were coming on full time. I don't know how to stop them sometimes and I know I really cannot talk to Jess about them. But I don't know who else there is for me. I just hope that everything just will calm down.
Well I hoped everyone had a good holiday weekend. Post Later
Kenz<3
Tuesday, May 18, 2010
Don't Even Have To Work
Wow I can't even believe that tonight I don't even have to work but I am up anyway. I mean come on I don't have to go back on third for one more night so I could at least sleep tonight. Of course I can't that is always how it works, but seeing how I slept till 2 today and took almost a three hours nap Sunday I am working on a lot of caught up sleep.
But the night is young and it's been awhile
And she broke my heart, broke it right in two
And it took some time but I'm feeling like I'm
Finally ready to find, find somebody new
Chorus:
I wanna kiss a girl
I wanna hold her tight
Maybe make a little magic in the moonlight
Don't wanna go too far just take it slow
But I shouldn't be lonely in this big 'ol world
I wanna kiss a girl
It's that moment when you start closin' in
First you're holding back then surrendering
It can start a fire, light up the sky
Such a simple thing, do you wanna try
Are you ready to
Say goodbye to all these rules
(Chorus)
'Cause maybe tonight
It could turn into the rest of our lives oh yeah
Are you ready
Are you ready
To cross that line put your lips on mine
Put your lips on mine baby
Do you wanna try
Are you ready to
Say goodbye to all these rules
I wanna kiss a girl
I wanna hold her tight maybe make a little magic baby
Don't wanna go to far just take it slow
But no one should be lonely, I shouldn't be lonely
I wanna kiss a girl
I wanna hold her tight
Maybe make a little magic in the moonlight
Don't wanna go too far just take it slow
But I shouldn't be lonely in this big 'ol world
I wanna kiss a girl
I said I wanna kiss a girl
I wanna kiss a girl
I wanna hold her tight
I wanna make a little magic out under the moonlight
Mmm, I wanna kiss her now
Well the talking to Jess hasn't gotten any easier, and I am starting to walk on eggshells to make sure I don't do anything crazy. I mean really he is truly the love of my life and I want to be with him for the rest of it but I am scared I am going to do something that is going to push him out of my life. I did give him "me time" today so hopefully things will be ok. I feel like I didn't push to hard today and I hope and pray I did the right thing. But being away from him is killing me. I feel like there is a thousand pound weight sitting on my chest that gets heavier every second that I am away from him. Ok, yes I will admit that I have problems with being apart. It is apart of the problems that I am still fighting to deal with. I am sorry that I have to put this on Jess. I know people need a break sometime but it is really hard for me. I think today has been a really bad day when it comes to all the meds I take. I have taken more Ativan today then I have in a while since we have started dating. I know that it is because of all my problems that I have and I am still having trouble dealing with them at times. I just really hope that the problems that I have are not going to push Jess away. I want him to not have to worry about the problems that I have to deal with. I am just truly scared that the problems I deal with are going to break our relationship down to nothing.
I am truly more scared of losing him then getting any problems fixed right now. I have learned tools to help deal just right now it all seems to much. Past relationships, especially the recent one I just had things started happening about 6 to 7 months in and Jess and I are now at that mark and I am so scared history will repeat itself. I know that I shouldn't compare past relationships to mine and Jesse's but I am scared and I do. I really don't want things to be this way and I truly don't know what to do. I wish I had help with this. Some kind of help anything really.
But on another note, I don't know how this weekend coming up is going to go. I hope it is going to be a great weekend and everything will be great. After Wednesday I am off Thursday and Friday. Then I go back to work on third shift Saturday and Sunday. I am just really hoping that my time with Jess with go amazing. That we will get to enjoy each other without fights and fusses that have been going on the past few weeks. I am still truly scared that everyday together will be a fight but I have to look for the good, I am praying for the good.
So I have put on a goal that I have to lose some weight now. I was looking back at when me and Jesse started dating just 7 months ago and I was so skinny, yes I know and I might not have looked healthy. But right now I feel like I have gained five thousand pounds and I am not wanting to be this way. I am scared that Jess is not going to want me anymore. I don't want to get way to skinny cause Jesse says he wants a girl with meat on her bones. But come on now I am sure he doesn't want someone with this much meat on them. I want to look wonderful for Jess, I want him to be proud that I am the girl he is with.
Just the things that are said sometimes just make me think and it is scary that it could be true that I don't turn Jesse on. I am just wanting to be everything to him. Even the looks that he wants and longs after. I want to be his everything. So I am going to work my butt off to get that way.
So the Plan:
Plan for tomorrow is hopefully here in a bit I am going to get some workout clothes on and go for a jog before it gets way to hot out there. Then I am going to come get dressed and work on washing some clothes. (Which I need to do more than anything.) I have to be at Rachel's house at 10:30 to keep Ahna and Joseph for her while she takes Isabell to the dentist. Then tomorrow afternoon I have to pick Chan up from school and bring her home. I am going to see the love of my life after that, getting ready for work there and going to work third shift. Yep that would be the plan tomorrow, now how well I stick to it we will just have to see.
Hopefully things will go good tomorrow. Hope yall have a great day
<3Ken<3
I haven't post a song in a straight minute and I was sitting here listening to music as I wrote and this song just came on. This song means something to me not the words really but the song was one of the songs on the CD me and Jess listened to in his truck the first night we met. So this song with always have a special place in my heart.
Some Fools Never Learn
Steve Wariner
All my friends
Say I should leave you alone
You got a heart like a stone
And a wanderin' eye
And I know that they're right
I can make up my mind
Not to see you again
But you move through my dreams like the wind
It's no good to pretend
It won't happen again
Cause it'll happen again
Some fools never learn
Play with the fire
And you're gonna get burned
It's only love
When you're loved in return
Some fools never learn
Some fools never learn
And Baby I tried
But I'm just not that strong
Guess I knew all along
But that's not enough
I was falling in love
And you don't know it
But I came over tonight
There was somebody's car parked outside
Damn my eyes
Damn this heart of mine
I drove off into the night
Some fools never learn
Play with the fire
And you're gonna get burned
It's only love
When your loved in return
Some fools never learn
Some fools never learn
Somewhere in the city tonight
There's a girl and she's lonely like me
She'll be easy to see
And naturally
She'll have that look in her eye
She'll be feeling that way
I see it all plain as day
Oh I'll never be
What she wants me to be
Oh but lucky for me
Some fools never learn
Play with the fire
And you're gonna get burned
It's only love
When your loved in return
Some fools never learn
Some fools never learn
Some fools never learn
Say I should leave you alone
You got a heart like a stone
And a wanderin' eye
And I know that they're right
I can make up my mind
Not to see you again
But you move through my dreams like the wind
It's no good to pretend
It won't happen again
Cause it'll happen again
Some fools never learn
Play with the fire
And you're gonna get burned
It's only love
When you're loved in return
Some fools never learn
Some fools never learn
And Baby I tried
But I'm just not that strong
Guess I knew all along
But that's not enough
I was falling in love
And you don't know it
But I came over tonight
There was somebody's car parked outside
Damn my eyes
Damn this heart of mine
I drove off into the night
Some fools never learn
Play with the fire
And you're gonna get burned
It's only love
When your loved in return
Some fools never learn
Some fools never learn
Somewhere in the city tonight
There's a girl and she's lonely like me
She'll be easy to see
And naturally
She'll have that look in her eye
She'll be feeling that way
I see it all plain as day
Oh I'll never be
What she wants me to be
Oh but lucky for me
Some fools never learn
Play with the fire
And you're gonna get burned
It's only love
When your loved in return
Some fools never learn
Some fools never learn
Some fools never learn
Then the next song that started playing was the song I played for Jess right before I kissed him for the first time. The memories just make me smile I swear.
Kiss A Girl
Keith Urban
To kiss and tell it's just not my styleBut the night is young and it's been awhile
And she broke my heart, broke it right in two
And it took some time but I'm feeling like I'm
Finally ready to find, find somebody new
Chorus:
I wanna kiss a girl
I wanna hold her tight
Maybe make a little magic in the moonlight
Don't wanna go too far just take it slow
But I shouldn't be lonely in this big 'ol world
I wanna kiss a girl
It's that moment when you start closin' in
First you're holding back then surrendering
It can start a fire, light up the sky
Such a simple thing, do you wanna try
Are you ready to
Say goodbye to all these rules
(Chorus)
'Cause maybe tonight
It could turn into the rest of our lives oh yeah
Are you ready
Are you ready
To cross that line put your lips on mine
Put your lips on mine baby
Do you wanna try
Are you ready to
Say goodbye to all these rules
I wanna kiss a girl
I wanna hold her tight maybe make a little magic baby
Don't wanna go to far just take it slow
But no one should be lonely, I shouldn't be lonely
I wanna kiss a girl
I wanna hold her tight
Maybe make a little magic in the moonlight
Don't wanna go too far just take it slow
But I shouldn't be lonely in this big 'ol world
I wanna kiss a girl
I said I wanna kiss a girl
I wanna kiss a girl
I wanna hold her tight
I wanna make a little magic out under the moonlight
Mmm, I wanna kiss her now
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