You never think things with workout for the good. You always just think that what happens to you is for the worst. Now I truly see that nothing just happens. Things happen for a rest and somethings happen for the good!
Friday, February 25, 2011
Sweet Little Memories
Winds blow against my window and I rolled over to hold him tight and I just had to keep reaching cause he wasn't there. The past month has had so many ups and downs I can't believe that I have had to wake up with him not next to me. Yea we are still together but I haven't gotten to sleep beside him in a month. He has held me in my sleep for a month. If I only knew that the last time we got to dream beside each other would have been our last for a long time I would have prayed that time would have stopped. That the night on the floor would go on forever and would never come to an end. I miss having him beside me. I wish that I could open my eyes and this really bad dream would come to an end. I feel like I have been suck in hell for a month and there has been nothing to stop it. I am so afraid of losing my best friend, my love, my soul, my everything. I miss the way things were and I pray everyday and every hour of the day that goes by things would go back and heal itself. I can't sleep at night and can't eat and feel like my world will soon come to an end if I lose him. I truly can go through all these feelings again. I have been here, done it, bought the ugly tshirt, and wore it out. I am ready for my life to go back to the good and the way it was and things to heal. I miss that way and I truly don't know how to get it back especially with everything going on around me. I just want my life to be better and to be able to hold him once again. I miss him and I love him more than anything right now. God I pray that things will get better soon. I can't lose my best friend over something like this. I love him and need to be with him for the rest of my life.
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